Trauma Based Mind Control
MK Ultra - Monarch - Ritual Abuse
ARTICHOKE and BLUEBIRD were administratively rolled over into MKULTRA, which was created by the CIA on April 3, 1953. MKULTRA was in turn rolled over into MKSEARCH on June 7, 1964. MKSEARCH then ran until June 1972, at which time extensive shredding of MKULTRA and MKSEARCH files was ordered by the Director of the CIA, Richard Helms. The surviving MKULTRA documents can be obtained from the CIA under the Freedom of Information Act. There was a round of declassification of mind control documents in the 1970's which were the foundation of books published in the 1970's and 1980's. - quote from book Bluebird page 7 by Colin A Ross While MK-Ultra was officially disbanded, other programs such as Operation Chickwit continued working on essentially the same programs. - quote from Sidney Gottlieb article http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sidney_Gottlieb
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2. Mind Control: Neurolinguistic Programing (NLP)
3. Witchcraft/ Wicca, Satanism and the Occult to Christ - Testimonies from people who have come out of these groups and what they experienced while inside these groups
4. Healing from Ritual Abuse Torture and Mind Control: Why Finding Your Voice Can Make a Difference to You and Others
5. A Nation Betrayed : Secret Cold War Experiments Performed On Our Children and Other Innocent People - A 10-Page Summary By Carol Rutz and Amazon com 2 chapter peak of book (book only available on Kindle) - Scroll down to the bottom of this subject to read the preface of this book
2. Mind Control: Neurolinguistic Programing (NLP)
3. Witchcraft/ Wicca, Satanism and the Occult to Christ - Testimonies from people who have come out of these groups and what they experienced while inside these groups
4. Healing from Ritual Abuse Torture and Mind Control: Why Finding Your Voice Can Make a Difference to You and Others
5. A Nation Betrayed : Secret Cold War Experiments Performed On Our Children and Other Innocent People - A 10-Page Summary By Carol Rutz and Amazon com 2 chapter peak of book (book only available on Kindle) - Scroll down to the bottom of this subject to read the preface of this book
Trauma Based Mind Control
MK Ultra - Monarch - Ritual Abuse
Article #1
The World of Mind Control Through the Eyes of an Artist (Kim Noble) with 13 Alter Personas
Kim Noble is a rare occurrence: a trauma-based mind control survivor with over 13 alter personas who don’t know each other but who all paint. She has suffered DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) for most of her life, as a result of an extremely traumatic childhood. Each one of her alters paints with a personal and distinctive style but they all have one thing in common: they reveal the dark world of mind control programming, from its horrific techniques to its symbolism. We’ll look at the works of this unique artist who reveals a world that is totally hidden from the masses.
Many articles on this site point out the presence of mind control symbolism in popular culture. Photo shoots, music videos and movies often glamorize and trivialize mind control and its symbolism by associating it with famous stars and trendy happenings. The fact however remains that these references celebrate one of the most abominable practices known to man: trauma based mind control, also called Monarch programming. Originating from the secret CIA project called MK-Ultra, Monarch Programming subjects its victims to some of the most sadistic tortures conceivable.(For more details on Monarch programming see the article entitled Origins and Techniques of Monarch Mind Control - See link at Article #3 below).
The works of Kim Noble vividly document the life of a mind control slave through the eyes of 13 alter personas. While a few of these alters paint peaceful landscapes and nature scenes, most of them depict horrific aspects of mind control such as physical torture, electroshock, violent sexual abuse, dehumanization and dark occult rituals. The stories told by these paintings are almost too much to bear, yet they likely actually happened to Kim Noble as they precisely reflect accounts of other Monarch survivors. Looking at the works of Kim Noble not only reveals gritty details of an abominable practice carried on by “elite” organizations, it reveals the symbolism that is also thrown in our faces on a daily basis through corporate-owned mass media. Let’s look at the life and works of Kim Noble. . .
(Please link here to read the full article on the fantastic website The Vigilent Citizen to read the article The World of Mind Control Through the Eyes of an Artist (Kim Noble) with 13 Alter Personas )
Article #2
Mind Control Theories and Techniques used by Mass Media
Most of the articles on this site discuss occult symbolism found in objects of popular culture. From these articles arise many legitimate questions relating to the purpose of those symbols and the motivations of those who place them there, but it is impossible for me to provide satisfactory answers to these questions without mentioning many other concepts and facts. I’ve therefore decided to write this article to supply the theoretical and methodological background of the analyzes presented on this site as well as introducing the main scholars of the field of mass communications. Some people read my articles and think I’m saying “Lady Gaga wants to control our minds”. That is not the case. She is simply a small part of the huge system that is the mass media. . . .
Please link here on the website The Vigilent Citizen to read the full article Mind Control Theories and Techniques used by Mass Media
Article #3
Origins and Techniques of Monarch Mind Control
Monarch Programming is a method of mind control used by numerous organizations for covert purposes. It is a continuation of project MK-ULTRA, a mind-control program developed by the CIA, and tested on the military and civilians. The methods are astonishingly sadistic (its entire purpose is to traumatize the victim) and the expected results are horrifying: The creation of a mind-controlled slave who can be triggered at anytime to perform any action required by the handler. While mass media ignores this issue, over 2 million Americans have gone through the horrors of this program. This article looks at the origins of Monarch programming and some of its methods and symbolism. . . .
( includes info on Dr. Joseph Mengele of Auschwitz - the Angel of Death, who was secretly brought to North America under the Operation Paperclip using the names of Dr Green and sometimes Dr Black. - View video directly below )
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The Most Dangerous Game-MK Ultra
Operation Paperclip Explained
4:49 - Ewen Cameron at the Allan Memorial Institute in Montreal CANADA
6:10 - 1977 Church Hearings - Forced CIA to release files exposing MK-ULTRA.
6:37 - Victims of Dr. Cameron's mind control sued the CIA. Awarded $1000,000 each
Excerpts from the book BLUEBIRD: Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by Psychiatrists
New title: The CIA Doctors: Human Rights Violations by American Psychiatrists
By Colin A. Ross MD
http://www.wanttoknow.info/bluebird10pg
Throughout the 20th century, academic psychiatry provided no public commentary, ethical guidance, or moral oversight concerning mind control experimentation, despite the fact that the leading psychiatrists and medical schools were well funded by the CIA and military for mind control research. Mental patients, cancer patients, and unwitting citizens were experimented on by mind control doctors at Yale, Harvard, McGill, Stanford, UCLA, and other major universities. P. 126
These human guinea pigs were never told that they were subjects in military and CIA mind control experiments, and they never gave informed consent. They received no systematic follow-up to document the harm done to them. The welfare of the "human subjects" was not a relevant variable in the academic equation." The mind control doctors saw their patients as biological machines, a view which made them sub-human, and therefore easier to abuse in mind control experiments. P. 91, 126
The MKULTRA contractor about whom the most has been written is Dr. Ewen Cameron. Cameron began conducting unethical and inhumane brainwashing experiments at Brandon mental Hospital in the 1930's. Schizophrenic patients were forced to lie naked in red light for eight hours a day for periods as long as eight months. Another experiment involved overheating patients in an electric cage until their body temperatures reached 102 degrees. P. 125 - 128
Dr. Cameron massively over-utilized coma therapy by putting patients in coma for 2 to 5 hours per day for up to 50 days in a row. At various times, Dr. Cameron was President of the Quebec, Canadian, American, and World Psychiatric Associations. He was one of four co-founders of the World Psychiatric Association. P. 126 -129
In a paper published in the American Journal of Psychiatry entitled "Psychic Driving," Dr. Cameron describes his brainwashing techniques. Psychic driving was carried out in two stages. In the first stage, patients were depatterned, which meant reduced to a vegetable state through a combination of massive amounts of electroconvulsive shock, drug-induced sleep and sensory isolation. When fully depatterned, patients were incontinent of urine and feces, unable to feed themselves, and unable to state their name, location, or the date. P. 129
In the second stage, psychic driving was introduced. This consisted of hundreds of hours of tape loops being played to the patient through earphones, special helmets, or speakers in the sensory isolation room. Dr. Cameron received a grant from Canada's Department of Health and Welfare for $57,750 for the years 1961 to 1964 for "A Study of Factors Which Promote or Retard Personality Change in Individuals Exposed to Prolonged Repetition of Verbal Signals." P. 129, 131
Linda MacDonald was a victim of Dr. Cameron's unethical, destructive mind control experiments between May 1 and Sept. 12, 1963. Cameron used a "treatment" which involved intensive application of three brainwashing techniques; drug disinhibition, prolonged sleep treatment, and prolonged psychological isolation. These were combined with ECT [Electro Convulsive Therapy] treatments. The amount of electricity introduced into Linda's brain exceeded by 76.5 times the maximum amount recommended in the ECT Guidelines of the American Psychiatric Association. P. 181-182
Dr. Cameron proved that doctors skilled in the right procedures can erase a subject's memory. His depattering technique resulted in permanent and complete amnesia. To this day, Linda MacDonald is unable to remember anything from her birth to 1963. As recorded by nurses in her chart, Linda was reduced to a vegetable state. She was completely disoriented. She didn't know her name, age or where she was. She didn't recognize her children. She couldn't read, drive, cook, or use a toilet. Not only did she not know her husband, she didn't even know what a husband was. P. 182-183
There is a connection to politics, power, and weapons in Linda MacDonald's life. Her husband worked for the Canadian Armament Research Development Establishment. His immediate boss was a man who sold arms to Saddam Hussein. His boss was also tied into the Iran-Contra affair, and was murdered in Europe a few years ago. P. 186
Life changed for Linda when the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation program, The Fifth Estate, aired a segment on Dr. Cameron on January 17, 1984. A Vancouver newspaper ran a full-page story on Robert Loggie, a Vancouver man who had been experimented on by Dr. Cameron. Loggie was a plaintiff in the class action suit against the CIA for Dr. Cameron's MKULTRA experiments, which was settled out of court for $750,000, divided among the eight plaintiffs. P. 187
Linda's mother phoned her about the program. Linda shook a lot in reaction to the news and didn't know what to do. Through a reporter she got in touch with a Washington lawyer representing the eight Canadian plaintiffs. He advised Linda that she could not be a party to the class action suit against the CIA because she was ‘treated' by Dr. Cameron after his CIA funding had stopped. The Canadian government had picked up the funding by 1963. Eventually she got $100,000 plus legal fees from the Canadian government. P. 187, 188
The fact that Dr. Cameron's unethical, inhumane, and grossly damaging experiments were published in the psychiatric literature is a condemnation of the editorial standards of the journals, not a vindication of Dr. Cameron. P. 132
Other person connected with MKULTRA:
Joseph Scheider alias Dr. Sidney Gottlieb http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sidney_Gottlieb
Dr. William Sweet participated in both brain electrode implant experiments and the injection of uranium into medical patients at Harvard University. The 925-page Final Report. Advisory Committee on Human radiation Experiments tells the story of the radiation experiments, and their linkage to mind control.
Dr. Martin Orne is one of the leading experts on hypnosis of the 20th century. For about 30 years, he was the editor of The International Journal of Clinical and Experimental Hypnosis. He is one of two psychiatrists professionally active into the late 1990's who is a documented CIA mind control contractor, along with Dr. Louis Jolyon West.
Louis Jolyon West documented CIA mind control contractor. He killed an elephant with LSD at Oklahoma City Zoo, had TOP SECRET clearance with the CIA and military.
Dr. Jose Delgado,
Drs. Vernon Mark,
Frank Ervin
The Mind Control Doctor
Dr. Ewen Cameron
Excerpts from the book BLUEBIRD: Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by Psychiatrists
New title: The CIA Doctors: Human Rights Violations by American Psychiatrists
By Colin A. Ross MD
http://www.wanttoknow.info/bluebird10pg
Throughout the 20th century, academic psychiatry provided no public commentary, ethical guidance, or moral oversight concerning mind control experimentation, despite the fact that the leading psychiatrists and medical schools were well funded by the CIA and military for mind control research. Mental patients, cancer patients, and unwitting citizens were experimented on by mind control doctors at Yale, Harvard, McGill, Stanford, UCLA, and other major universities. P. 126
These human guinea pigs were never told that they were subjects in military and CIA mind control experiments, and they never gave informed consent. They received no systematic follow-up to document the harm done to them. The welfare of the "human subjects" was not a relevant variable in the academic equation." The mind control doctors saw their patients as biological machines, a view which made them sub-human, and therefore easier to abuse in mind control experiments. P. 91, 126
The MKULTRA contractor about whom the most has been written is Dr. Ewen Cameron. Cameron began conducting unethical and inhumane brainwashing experiments at Brandon mental Hospital in the 1930's. Schizophrenic patients were forced to lie naked in red light for eight hours a day for periods as long as eight months. Another experiment involved overheating patients in an electric cage until their body temperatures reached 102 degrees. P. 125 - 128
Dr. Cameron massively over-utilized coma therapy by putting patients in coma for 2 to 5 hours per day for up to 50 days in a row. At various times, Dr. Cameron was President of the Quebec, Canadian, American, and World Psychiatric Associations. He was one of four co-founders of the World Psychiatric Association. P. 126 -129
In a paper published in the American Journal of Psychiatry entitled "Psychic Driving," Dr. Cameron describes his brainwashing techniques. Psychic driving was carried out in two stages. In the first stage, patients were depatterned, which meant reduced to a vegetable state through a combination of massive amounts of electroconvulsive shock, drug-induced sleep and sensory isolation. When fully depatterned, patients were incontinent of urine and feces, unable to feed themselves, and unable to state their name, location, or the date. P. 129
In the second stage, psychic driving was introduced. This consisted of hundreds of hours of tape loops being played to the patient through earphones, special helmets, or speakers in the sensory isolation room. Dr. Cameron received a grant from Canada's Department of Health and Welfare for $57,750 for the years 1961 to 1964 for "A Study of Factors Which Promote or Retard Personality Change in Individuals Exposed to Prolonged Repetition of Verbal Signals." P. 129, 131
Linda MacDonald was a victim of Dr. Cameron's unethical, destructive mind control experiments between May 1 and Sept. 12, 1963. Cameron used a "treatment" which involved intensive application of three brainwashing techniques; drug disinhibition, prolonged sleep treatment, and prolonged psychological isolation. These were combined with ECT [Electro Convulsive Therapy] treatments. The amount of electricity introduced into Linda's brain exceeded by 76.5 times the maximum amount recommended in the ECT Guidelines of the American Psychiatric Association. P. 181-182
Dr. Cameron proved that doctors skilled in the right procedures can erase a subject's memory. His depattering technique resulted in permanent and complete amnesia. To this day, Linda MacDonald is unable to remember anything from her birth to 1963. As recorded by nurses in her chart, Linda was reduced to a vegetable state. She was completely disoriented. She didn't know her name, age or where she was. She didn't recognize her children. She couldn't read, drive, cook, or use a toilet. Not only did she not know her husband, she didn't even know what a husband was. P. 182-183
There is a connection to politics, power, and weapons in Linda MacDonald's life. Her husband worked for the Canadian Armament Research Development Establishment. His immediate boss was a man who sold arms to Saddam Hussein. His boss was also tied into the Iran-Contra affair, and was murdered in Europe a few years ago. P. 186
Life changed for Linda when the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation program, The Fifth Estate, aired a segment on Dr. Cameron on January 17, 1984. A Vancouver newspaper ran a full-page story on Robert Loggie, a Vancouver man who had been experimented on by Dr. Cameron. Loggie was a plaintiff in the class action suit against the CIA for Dr. Cameron's MKULTRA experiments, which was settled out of court for $750,000, divided among the eight plaintiffs. P. 187
Linda's mother phoned her about the program. Linda shook a lot in reaction to the news and didn't know what to do. Through a reporter she got in touch with a Washington lawyer representing the eight Canadian plaintiffs. He advised Linda that she could not be a party to the class action suit against the CIA because she was ‘treated' by Dr. Cameron after his CIA funding had stopped. The Canadian government had picked up the funding by 1963. Eventually she got $100,000 plus legal fees from the Canadian government. P. 187, 188
The fact that Dr. Cameron's unethical, inhumane, and grossly damaging experiments were published in the psychiatric literature is a condemnation of the editorial standards of the journals, not a vindication of Dr. Cameron. P. 132
Other person connected with MKULTRA:
Joseph Scheider alias Dr. Sidney Gottlieb http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sidney_Gottlieb
Dr. William Sweet participated in both brain electrode implant experiments and the injection of uranium into medical patients at Harvard University. The 925-page Final Report. Advisory Committee on Human radiation Experiments tells the story of the radiation experiments, and their linkage to mind control.
Dr. Martin Orne is one of the leading experts on hypnosis of the 20th century. For about 30 years, he was the editor of The International Journal of Clinical and Experimental Hypnosis. He is one of two psychiatrists professionally active into the late 1990's who is a documented CIA mind control contractor, along with Dr. Louis Jolyon West.
Louis Jolyon West documented CIA mind control contractor. He killed an elephant with LSD at Oklahoma City Zoo, had TOP SECRET clearance with the CIA and military.
Dr. Jose Delgado,
Drs. Vernon Mark,
Frank Ervin
MK Ultra In / Au Canada (Dr Ewen Cameron)
Voici un extrait de l'émission "The Fifth Estate" (CBS) sur le tournage du film "The Sleep Room", ce dernier révèle les liens entre la CIA et les travaux du Dr Ewen Cameron qui se déroulèrent entre 1957 et 1964 à l'institut "Allen Memorial" au Canada. Voici les images d'archives et les témoignages des victimes sur lesquels sont basés le film. L'émission a été diffusé le 6 janvier 1998, pas de rediffusion. Désolé, il manque le début et la fin, je n'ai pas réussi à trouver la vidéo originale..
The Sleep Room
Movie based on a true story, this production relates the tale of Canadian mind-control victims from the early 1950's, the CIA funds a Montreal psychiatric hospital, Allan Memorial, to do mind-control experiments on patients in what has become known as "Project MK-ULTRA". Thirty-some years later, the patients want justice...
Lose My Soul by Toby Mac and Kirk Franklin
Inside The Mind of an MKUltra Killer with Author Fritz Springmeier and Alex Jones
Content of Video:
Springmeier helps members of the Illuminati who want to get out - Suicide programing put in people to activate if they try to leave - Illuminati mind control is a full spectrum cocktail made up of a number of different mind control techniques combined including physical abuse and threats - people are blackmailed from pedophilia set-ups - Young children taken away by Children Services (CPS) are used for sexual abuse - Pedophile Valley in Pennsylvania - Boy's Town
[Link here to view Child Sex Rings, Pornography and Snuff Films:Servicing Those with Power and Authority in North America and Elsewhere]
- UN child sex slaves
[Link here to view HUMAN TRAFFICKING part 3:The Spirit of Globalism and the United Nations /UN Whistleblowers]
- Texas Youth Commission CPS child sex slave brothels - Trauma based mind control 1st used on their own (Illuminati) people but now used by Illuminati elite on ordinary people - TV used for mind control - Walt Disney Movies - 2012 Olympics: mind control techniques used during opening ceremony - Using watershed events, mind control is synchronized with a number of other people - Illuminati likes to preview events in the open before actual events ("In plain sight") - Wants to force a world wide religion based on Satanism and witchcraft - At Illuminati high level meeting get instructions directly from Satan [Feast of the Beast] - Aliens = Demons - Wants the full destruction of the human race - HBO TV! - Satan = Lucifer = Prometheus - Knowledge turned upside down: What was seen as wrong will be seen as right and what was right will be seen as wrong - Within Illuminati, mind control begins at 18 month [I have heard , begins in the womb], They are traumatized until their minds split into multiple personalities - Public is being traumatized delibertly to prep for our mind control [ie: This is why the 9/11 film footage was shown over and over again on TV] - Alice in Wonderland and Wizard of Oz etc. used for programing - The American government brought Josef Mengele [Angel of Death] and Klaus Barbie (Nazi experimenters) to North America after the war [under the Paper Clip program] to continue their trauma based mind control experiments [MK Ultra] - CIA used Jim Jones cult and other cults to test mind control techniques - Trying to spread disinformation and cause infighting within the alternate media - Colorado movie theatre shooter - Brain stem scaring will give person photographic memory - Sirhan Sirhan - Become aware of patterns and clues that will indicate a person is under mind control - With multiple personalites, satanic personality is hidden behind a pleasant front personality - robotic - It is important to work past your desire to shut down when you are learning information on mind control and other related topics [Important to protect yourself and your family] - Vaccines - Fluoride - Bankers openly gloating - Watch out for churches pushing obedience to the government
[Link here to read scriptures that show Believers Can Disobey Governments and Authorities and be Blessed by God - Jesus Disrespected those in Authority]
- Watch out for journal writing in schools used to spy on your family - vaccinating without parent permission - NDAA 2012 the Senate Pass Legalization of Sodomy, Beastiality for US Military - Publicly, the elite say they want to reduce population by 80 or 90% but in fact they want 99 - 100% of us dead : Agenda 21: Population Cut / Cull - Dr. Eric R. Pianka received raucous reception of applause in a speech to the Texas Academy of Science, where he gleefully advocated airborne ebola as his preferred method of exterminating the necessary 90% of humans. -Banksters are just a front for the more sinister Illuminati elite: 13 bloodlines but 5 of these families are the inner circle (include the European royal bloodline)
Springmeier helps members of the Illuminati who want to get out - Suicide programing put in people to activate if they try to leave - Illuminati mind control is a full spectrum cocktail made up of a number of different mind control techniques combined including physical abuse and threats - people are blackmailed from pedophilia set-ups - Young children taken away by Children Services (CPS) are used for sexual abuse - Pedophile Valley in Pennsylvania - Boy's Town
[Link here to view Child Sex Rings, Pornography and Snuff Films:Servicing Those with Power and Authority in North America and Elsewhere]
- UN child sex slaves
[Link here to view HUMAN TRAFFICKING part 3:The Spirit of Globalism and the United Nations /UN Whistleblowers]
- Texas Youth Commission CPS child sex slave brothels - Trauma based mind control 1st used on their own (Illuminati) people but now used by Illuminati elite on ordinary people - TV used for mind control - Walt Disney Movies - 2012 Olympics: mind control techniques used during opening ceremony - Using watershed events, mind control is synchronized with a number of other people - Illuminati likes to preview events in the open before actual events ("In plain sight") - Wants to force a world wide religion based on Satanism and witchcraft - At Illuminati high level meeting get instructions directly from Satan [Feast of the Beast] - Aliens = Demons - Wants the full destruction of the human race - HBO TV! - Satan = Lucifer = Prometheus - Knowledge turned upside down: What was seen as wrong will be seen as right and what was right will be seen as wrong - Within Illuminati, mind control begins at 18 month [I have heard , begins in the womb], They are traumatized until their minds split into multiple personalities - Public is being traumatized delibertly to prep for our mind control [ie: This is why the 9/11 film footage was shown over and over again on TV] - Alice in Wonderland and Wizard of Oz etc. used for programing - The American government brought Josef Mengele [Angel of Death] and Klaus Barbie (Nazi experimenters) to North America after the war [under the Paper Clip program] to continue their trauma based mind control experiments [MK Ultra] - CIA used Jim Jones cult and other cults to test mind control techniques - Trying to spread disinformation and cause infighting within the alternate media - Colorado movie theatre shooter - Brain stem scaring will give person photographic memory - Sirhan Sirhan - Become aware of patterns and clues that will indicate a person is under mind control - With multiple personalites, satanic personality is hidden behind a pleasant front personality - robotic - It is important to work past your desire to shut down when you are learning information on mind control and other related topics [Important to protect yourself and your family] - Vaccines - Fluoride - Bankers openly gloating - Watch out for churches pushing obedience to the government
[Link here to read scriptures that show Believers Can Disobey Governments and Authorities and be Blessed by God - Jesus Disrespected those in Authority]
- Watch out for journal writing in schools used to spy on your family - vaccinating without parent permission - NDAA 2012 the Senate Pass Legalization of Sodomy, Beastiality for US Military - Publicly, the elite say they want to reduce population by 80 or 90% but in fact they want 99 - 100% of us dead : Agenda 21: Population Cut / Cull - Dr. Eric R. Pianka received raucous reception of applause in a speech to the Texas Academy of Science, where he gleefully advocated airborne ebola as his preferred method of exterminating the necessary 90% of humans. -Banksters are just a front for the more sinister Illuminati elite: 13 bloodlines but 5 of these families are the inner circle (include the European royal bloodline)
MKULTRA 1950's (#7)
MKULTRA Survivor's Testimony (#8)
Victims and a therapist speak to the Presidents Advisory Commission on Human Radiation Experiments 1995. For a more thorough understanding read Dr. Colin Ross book Bluebird on the subject of black psychiatry, hypnosis, and MPD, SRA, and CIA's involvement.
Original Title
Same book- New title
Link here to read 10 page summary of this book
In this summary of Bluebird , Dr. Ross describes unethical experiments conducted by psychiatrists to create amnesia, new identities, hypnotic access codes, and new memories in the minds of experimental subjects. His research is based on 15,000 pages of documents obtained under the Freedom of Information Act. Dr. Ross is a past president of the International Society for the Study of Dissociation. Please help to spread the word .
MKULTRA Survivor's Testimony (#9)
MKULTRA Survivor's Testimony (#10)
MKULTRA Perpetrators (#11a)
MKULTRA Perpetrators (#11b)
Dr. G. H. Estabrooks
George Hoben Estabrooks (1885 – 1973) was a Canadian-American psychologist. George Estabrooks was a Harvard University graduate, a Rhodes Scholar, chairman of the Department of Psychology at Colgate University and an authority on hypnosis during World War II. He is known for hypnoprogramming U.S. government agents during World War II.
Excerpts from the book BLUEBIRD: Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by Psychiatrists
New title: The CIA Doctors: Human Rights Violations by American Psychiatrists
By Colin A. Ross MD
G.H. Estabrooks is the only mind control doctor who has publicly acknowledged the building of Manchurian Candidates. In his book Spiritism, Dr. Estabrooks describes experiments done to create multiple personality by military psychiatrist Dr. P.L. Harriman. In his book Hypnotism, Dr. Estabrooks states that the creation of experimental multiple personality for operational use in military subjects, whom he refers to as super spies, is ethical because of the demands of war. P. 159, 162
He comments in a chapter entitled "Hypnotism in Warfare" that: "the hand of the military must not be tied by any silly prejudices in the minds of the general public. War is the end of all law. In the last analysis any device is justifiable which enables us to protect ourselves from defeat." P. 162
In a May 13, 1968 article in the Providence Evening Bulletin, Estabrooks is described as a former consultant for the FBI and CIA, and is quoted as saying that, "the key to creating an effective spy or assassin rests in splitting a man's personality, or creating multipersonality, with the aid of hypnotism. This is not science fiction. This has and is being done. I have done it." P. 162
Dr. Estabrooks' proposal to the CIA dated June 22, 1954 states: "In deep hypnosis the subject, military or civilian, can be given a message to be delivered to say Colonel X in Berlin. The message will be perfectly safe because the subject will have no memory in the waking state as to the message. It can be arranged that the subject will have no knowledge of ever having been hypnotized. It can be arranged that no one beside Colonel X in Berlin can hypnotize the subject and recover the message….I will take a number of men and will establish in them through the use of hypnotism the condition of split personality. Consciously they will be ardent Communists, fanatical adherents to the party line. Unconsciously they will be loyal Americans determined to thwart the Communists at every turn. These men will have no knowledge of ever having been hypnotized, and can only be hypnotized by such persons as the original operator may choose. Consciously they will associate with the Communists and learn all their plans. Once every month they, as loyal Americans, will tell what they know. This sounds unbelievable, but I assure you, it will work." P. 163, 165
In a 1971 article in Science Digest, Dr. Estabrooks [43] claimed to have created hypnotic couriers and counterintelligence agents for operational use: "The ‘hypnotic courier' provides a unique solution. I was involved in preparing army subjects during World War II. One successful case involved an Army Captain. He was an excellent subject but did not realize it. I removed from him, by post hypnotic suggestion, all recollection of ever having been hypnotized. I put him under deep hypnosis, and gave him – orally – a vital message to be delivered directly on his arrival in Japan to a certain colonel – let's say his name was Brown – of military intelligence. Outside of myself, Colonel Brown was the only person who could hypnotize Captain Smith. This is ‘locking.' I performed it by saying to the captain, ‘We will use the phrase ‘the moon is clear.' Whenever you hear this phrase from Brown or myself you will pass instantly into deep hypnosis.' When Captain Smith re-awakened, he had no conscious memory of what happened in trance. The system is virtually foolproof." P. 167, 168
By the 1920's not only had [clinical hypnotists] learned to apply posthypnotic suggestion, but also had learned to split certain complex individuals into multiple personalities like Jeckyl-Hydes. During World War II, I worked this technique with a vulnerable Marine lieutenant I'll call Jones. I split his personality into Jones A and Jones B. Jones A, once a "normal" working Marine, became entirely different. He talked communist doctrine and meant it. He was welcomed enthusiastically by communist cells, and was deliberately given a dishonorable discharge by the Corps and became a card-carrying party member. Jones B was the deeper personality, knew all the thoughts of Jones A, was a loyal American and was "imprinted" to say nothing during conscious phases. All I had to do was hypnotize the whole man, get in touch with Jones B, the loyal American, and I had a pipeline straight into the Communist camp. It worked beautifully for months." P. 169
Dr. Estabrooks did experiments on children. He corresponded with FBI Director J. Edgar Hoover about using hypnosis to interrogate juvenile delinquents. His experimentation on children raises the possibility that investigators have attempted to create Manchurian Candidates in children. Such a possibility might seem far-fetched until one considers the LSD, biological and radiation experiments conducted on children, the fact that four MKULTRA Subprojects were on children, and that hypnotic subjects described in the CIA documents include girls 19 years of age. P. 176, 177
He comments in a chapter entitled "Hypnotism in Warfare" that: "the hand of the military must not be tied by any silly prejudices in the minds of the general public. War is the end of all law. In the last analysis any device is justifiable which enables us to protect ourselves from defeat." P. 162
In a May 13, 1968 article in the Providence Evening Bulletin, Estabrooks is described as a former consultant for the FBI and CIA, and is quoted as saying that, "the key to creating an effective spy or assassin rests in splitting a man's personality, or creating multipersonality, with the aid of hypnotism. This is not science fiction. This has and is being done. I have done it." P. 162
Dr. Estabrooks' proposal to the CIA dated June 22, 1954 states: "In deep hypnosis the subject, military or civilian, can be given a message to be delivered to say Colonel X in Berlin. The message will be perfectly safe because the subject will have no memory in the waking state as to the message. It can be arranged that the subject will have no knowledge of ever having been hypnotized. It can be arranged that no one beside Colonel X in Berlin can hypnotize the subject and recover the message….I will take a number of men and will establish in them through the use of hypnotism the condition of split personality. Consciously they will be ardent Communists, fanatical adherents to the party line. Unconsciously they will be loyal Americans determined to thwart the Communists at every turn. These men will have no knowledge of ever having been hypnotized, and can only be hypnotized by such persons as the original operator may choose. Consciously they will associate with the Communists and learn all their plans. Once every month they, as loyal Americans, will tell what they know. This sounds unbelievable, but I assure you, it will work." P. 163, 165
In a 1971 article in Science Digest, Dr. Estabrooks [43] claimed to have created hypnotic couriers and counterintelligence agents for operational use: "The ‘hypnotic courier' provides a unique solution. I was involved in preparing army subjects during World War II. One successful case involved an Army Captain. He was an excellent subject but did not realize it. I removed from him, by post hypnotic suggestion, all recollection of ever having been hypnotized. I put him under deep hypnosis, and gave him – orally – a vital message to be delivered directly on his arrival in Japan to a certain colonel – let's say his name was Brown – of military intelligence. Outside of myself, Colonel Brown was the only person who could hypnotize Captain Smith. This is ‘locking.' I performed it by saying to the captain, ‘We will use the phrase ‘the moon is clear.' Whenever you hear this phrase from Brown or myself you will pass instantly into deep hypnosis.' When Captain Smith re-awakened, he had no conscious memory of what happened in trance. The system is virtually foolproof." P. 167, 168
By the 1920's not only had [clinical hypnotists] learned to apply posthypnotic suggestion, but also had learned to split certain complex individuals into multiple personalities like Jeckyl-Hydes. During World War II, I worked this technique with a vulnerable Marine lieutenant I'll call Jones. I split his personality into Jones A and Jones B. Jones A, once a "normal" working Marine, became entirely different. He talked communist doctrine and meant it. He was welcomed enthusiastically by communist cells, and was deliberately given a dishonorable discharge by the Corps and became a card-carrying party member. Jones B was the deeper personality, knew all the thoughts of Jones A, was a loyal American and was "imprinted" to say nothing during conscious phases. All I had to do was hypnotize the whole man, get in touch with Jones B, the loyal American, and I had a pipeline straight into the Communist camp. It worked beautifully for months." P. 169
Dr. Estabrooks did experiments on children. He corresponded with FBI Director J. Edgar Hoover about using hypnosis to interrogate juvenile delinquents. His experimentation on children raises the possibility that investigators have attempted to create Manchurian Candidates in children. Such a possibility might seem far-fetched until one considers the LSD, biological and radiation experiments conducted on children, the fact that four MKULTRA Subprojects were on children, and that hypnotic subjects described in the CIA documents include girls 19 years of age. P. 176, 177
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In the dark and ugly netherworld where violent crime and covert operations collide, there appear to be two general categories into which a large majority of those we label ‘serial killers’ can be sorted: controlled assassins, and controlled patsies. - David McGowan Programed to Kill pg 271
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A Nation Betrayed : Secret Cold War Experiments Performed On Our Children and Other Innocent People :
by Carol Rutz
This is the story of someone you know-your neighbor, your classmate, your brother or sister, your mother or father. It is the secret they have been holding within their hearts, because they were afraid the American public could not believe their government would carry out human experimentation on children in direct defiance of the Nuremberg Code, which has been "official" United States policy since 1946.
Some of the very same Nazi doctors who worked in mental institutions before WW II, deciding whether mentally deficient children should be sterilized or killed because of their defective genes, also carried out horrendous experiments in the death camps. Their medical expertise, along with hundreds of Nazi scientists was considered so vital to the "Cold War" effort; that they would be brought into the United States and Canada to work side by side with some of the greatest but most perverse minds the 20th century would ever see.
In September 1999 the Department of Justice succeeded in denaturalizing 63 participants in Nazi acts of persecution; and in removing 52 such individuals from this country. This appears to be but a small portion of those who actually were brought here by our own government. A 1999 report to the Senate and the House said, "that between 1945 and 1955, 765 scientists, engineers, and technicians were brought to the United States under Overcast, Paperclip, and similar programs. It has been estimated that at least half, and perhaps as many as 80 percent of the imported specialists were former Nazi Party members."
Hubertus Strughold
Not all of those imported participated in experiments, but some did. A number of these scientists were recruited to work for the Air Force's School of Aviation Medicine (SAM) at Brooks Air Force Base in Texas, where dozens of human radiation experiments were conducted during the Cold War. Among them were flashblindness studies in connection with atomic weapons tests and data gathering for total-body irradiation studies conducted in Houston. The experiments for which Nazi investigators were tried included many related to aviation research. Hubertus Strughold, called "the father of space medicine," had a long career at the SAM, including the recruitment of other Paperclip scientists in Germany. On September 24, 1995 the Jewish Telegraphic Agency reported that as head of Nazi Germany's Air Force Institute for Aviation Medicine, Strughold participated in a 1942 conference that discussed "experiments" on human beings. The experiments included subjecting Dachau concentration camp inmates to torture and death.
The Edgewood Arsenal of the Army's Chemical Corps as well as other military research sites recruited these scientists with backgrounds in aeromedicine, radiobiology, and ophthalmology. Edgewood Arsenal, Maryland ended up conducting experiments on more than seven thousand American soldiers. Using Auschwitz documents as a guide, they conducted the same type of poison gas experiments that had been done in the secret I. G. Farben laboratories.
Wernher von Braun and Disney
Wright Patterson Airforce Base in Ohio employed several German Peenemunde scientists, brought there by Army Air Force Colonel Donald Putt. Peenemunde Aerodynamics Institute built the V-2 rockets and German fighter jets using forced slave labor from the Karlshagen concentration camp. The Peenemunde team leader, Wernher von Braun, became the first director of the Marshall Space Flight Center. Just two weeks after the moon landing, von Braun confessed in a letter to an Army General, that he had been a member of the SS. "It's true that I was a member of Hitler's elite SS. The columnist was correct. I would appreciate it if you would keep the information to yourself, as any publicity would harm my work with NASA."
Walter Dornberger
Former Peenemunde General Walter Dornberger became vice president of Bell Aircraft Co. after he ended his employment at Wright-Patterson Airforce Base where he worked on a classified rocketry program. Dornberger controlled the production schedule for building the Nordhausen rocket works at the Dora concentration camp where over 20,000 prisoners were killed through starvation, disease, or execution.
A Congressional subcommittee hearing in 1994 revealed that up to 500,000 Americans were endangered by secret defense-related tests between 1940 and 1974. These included covert experiments with radioactive materials, mustard gas, LSD, and biological agents. The General Accounting Office testified that between 1949 and 1969, the Army released radioactive compounds in 239 cities to study the effects.
Experiments began in the 1930's and continued on for the next four decades.
· The government admitted wrongdoing in the 1932 Tuskegee Experiments, where poor black African American sharecroppers from Macon County, Alabama were allowed to go untreated for their syphilis so the effects could be studied. When physicians and researchers involved with the United States Public Health Service offered them free medical care, they believed they had found treatment for what they had been told was "bad blood." Instead, they were enrolled in an observational research study, without their knowledge or consent. Even though some rudimentary remedies for syphilis were available in the early years of the study, they were not offered to these men, so that the study of the natural history of the untreated disease would not be jeopardized. This study did not end until 1972, forty years after it had begun, and twenty years after penicillin had been identified as an effective treatment for syphilis. On May 16, 1997, President Clinton apologized to the survivors and families of hundreds of men used in this research project.
· Twelve human "guinea pigs" were secretly injected with radioactive Plutonium 239 and uranium in government experiments in the 1940’s. Energy Secretary Hazel O’Leary, in announcing the settlement of $4.8 million to be paid to their families, said the government was "grateful" to the victims for "the tough lessons they have taught us about trust, responsibility, and accountability between the government and the people."
Cemetery for Walter E. Fernald School
in Waltham, Massachusetts
· Less known were such experiments as the feeding of radioactive cereal in the 1940s and 1950s to young male children who were institutionalized at the Fernald School in Massachusetts. The researchers had little experience with radionuclides in humans; consequently this approach to medical investigation gave them that opportunity. The parents as well as the children were simply told they were being fed a diet rich in iron. According to oral testimony given before the President's Advisory Committee on Human Radiation, they were told they belonged to the Science Club to make them feel special and then taken to the MIT Faculty Club where it was easier to control them. One researcher said, "It would be nice to do something for them because these kids have been involved, we've had to jab them [with needles], and they had to eat a meal every little drop of it, because you wanted to be sure they got 100 percent of the radioactivity wouldn’t it be nice to do something for them?"
· Atomic tests on 2584 military personnel in the Nevada desert in 1953.
Willowbrook State School
During the 1950s and 1960s Dr. Saul Krugman of New York University conducted studies of hepatitis at the Willowbrook State School, an institution for the severely mentally retarded. Krugman and his staff systematically infected newly arrived children between the ages of three and eleven with strains of the virus obtained from the feces of Willowbrook hepatitis patients. This was done to study the natural history, effects, and progression of the disease. In 1972 Geraldo Rivera wrote an expose entitled Willowbrook, in which he reported that one hundred percent of the patients contacted hepatitis within six months of being in this institution. Obviously, he was unaware of the intentional infection of these children. When he saw them he compared them to photographs he had seen of the Nazi death camps. When Bobby Kennedy toured this institution in September of 1965 he said, "At Willowbrook we have a situation that borders on a snake pit: . . . the children live in filth . . ." The Journal of the American Medical Association actually went so far as to credit Krugman’s "judicious use of human beings." Franz Inglefinger, who later became the editor of the New England Journal of Medicine went even further by saying, "By being allowed to participate in a carefully supervised study and by receiving the most expert attention available for a disease of basically unknown nature, the patients themselves benefited . . . How much better to have a patient with hepatitis accidentally or deliberately acquired under the guidance of a Krugman, than under the care of a rights-minded zealot."
Forest Haven was a children's developmental center in Laurel, Maryland. It is sometimes inaccurately referred to as DC Children's Center
Retarded children at D.C. Children’s Center in Laurel in a section called the District Training School were used as human guinea pigs for both private industry and the government. Among the experiments, was the testing of NeoBazine a diet pill commonly referred to as "rainbow pills." They contained thyroxin, which caused tremors, nervousness, insomnia, and tachycardia. It was being tested for its safety and efficiency. In October 1964 the FDA found that the drug was not safe for use. In 1962 the children were again used to test a drug for skin diseases, which doctors strongly suspected caused serious side effects to the human liver. More than half the children tested suffered some liver dysfunction. Eight were admitted to D.C. General Hospital for intensive care. That same year, 17 Laurel Center children were used to study thyroid hormone metabolism in children. The children were injected with thyroxin mixed with radioactive iodine to aid doctors in tracing a body process. As you can see, there was a clear pattern of using innocent children who had no way of protecting themselves.
· Alexander Cockburn describes a 1960 Army Chemical Corps experiment where mosquitoes with yellow fever and dengue fever were dispersed in Savannah, Georgia and Avon Park, Florida. According to Cockburn, "Carver Village, which was exclusively black, was the target for these experiments. Residents at the time reported fevers, bronchitis, typhoid, encephalitis, stillbirths, also mysterious deaths."
Dr. Alan W. Scheflin, Professor of law at Santa Clara University Law School, and a judicially recognized expert in mind and behavior control states in a letter dated March 9, 1995, that secret government mind control experimentation is ongoing and vastly more expansive than the government authorities are willing to admit. He also is co-author of a nonfiction book entitled The Mind Manipulators, which was published in a dozen countries. He says that he has been studying these secret programs since 1975 and it is his conclusion that there are at minimum hundreds, and most likely thousands of American citizens who were used as guinea pigs against their will in government research projects. What he does not say is that most of the children used in these experiments were sold by one of their caretakers in the name of "National Security" and subjected to untold horrors at the hands of their government. In light of so many abuses of power coming before the public in recent years, many adult survivors of these childhood experiments are stepping forward to be heard.
In October 1995 the President’s Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments reported that secret radiation experiments on indigent patients and mentally retarded children were not only done, but that these people were deceived about the nature of their treatments. Dr. William Silverman asserted that performing nontherapeutic experiments on children without authorization from parents was part of a broader "ethos of the time" in which "everyone was a draftee" in a national war on disease.
In most cases the experiments involving radiation, chemical and biological warfare materials were carried out on an unsuspecting public. These are listed in Part II of this book. Government mind control experiments using drugs, sensory deprivation, hypnosis, and electric shock were used on adults and children to gain control of their minds. Impossible, you say. I wish it were. We live in such a sheltered little world. It’s much easier to believe that violence and mind control belong to a few scattered cults.
Warren Burger
In a decision dated April 16, 1985 Chief Justice Burger of the United States Court of Appeals delivered the opinion of the Court in the case of CIA v. SIMS, 471 U.S. 159. This case focused around the publics right under the Freedom of Information Act, to have declassified the grant proposals and contracts, and the names of the institutions and individuals who had performed research under the CIA financed research project, code-named MKULTRA.
MKULTRA was established to counter soviet and Chinese advances in brainwashing and interrogation techniques and consisted of 149 subprojects contracted out to at least 80 institutions. In 1977 Director of Intelligence Stansfield Turner described in an affidavit, that the program was initiated because the Agency was confronted with "learning the state of the art of behavioral modification at a time when the U.S. Government was concerned about inexplicable behavior of persons behind the 'iron curtain' and American prisoners of war who had been subjected to so called brainwashing."
Richard Helms - CIA Director, 1966-73
It began with a proposal from Richard Helms, who outlined a special funding mechanism for highly sensitive Agency research and development projects that would study the use of biological and chemical materials in altering human behavior.
Allen Dulles's identification card from the Office of Strategic Services, the United States' intelligence gathering agency during World War II
Allen Dulles approved MKULTRA on April 13, 1953. Twenty years after the conception of the MKULTRA project, all known files pertaining to it were ordered destroyed by Richard Helms before he retired.
In 1977 through a Freedom of Information Act request by John Marks, 16,000 pages of documents were found, held as part of the Agency’s financial history. Further attempts at declassification resulted in the decision rendered by Chief Justice Burger that the "intelligence sources" who were guaranteed confidentiality at the time of these CIA funded research projects would continue to remain protected and classified.
To those of us who have survived these experiments, this decision means that our stories will continue to lie in the government vaults of classified materials. Most of the important details were conveniently destroyed under orders of Richard Helms to conceal their wrongdoing. Think what would have happened if the records of the Holocaust had met the same fate. The disappearance of six million people could have remained a question mark in history.
As a survivor of CIA programs Bluebird/Artichoke and MKULTRA, I began my intense search to document some of the mind control experiments that I was made part of, starting at the tender age of four. Through a series of FOIA requests to various departments of the government, I have amassed an incredible amount of material that validates my personal experiences. The CIA bought my services from my grandfather in 1952. Over the next twelve years, I was tested, trained, and used in various ways. Electroshock, drugs, hypnosis, sensory deprivation, and other types of trauma were used to make me compliant and split my personality. The "Manchurian Candidate", where a programmed alter or personality is created to respond to a post-hypnotic trigger then perform an act and not remember it later, was just one of the operational uses of the mind control scenario by the CIA. A reliable truth serum would be another. In Bluebird, Dr. Colin Ross documents the deliberate creation of Multiple Personality by psychiatrists working under government contracts. Your hard earned tax dollars supported this, as well as experiments on extrasensory perception and remote viewing, all of which I was tested and trained for.
CIA personnel were not opposed to working with Nazi doctors who had proven to be proficient in breaking the mind and rebuilding it. To perform these experiments they also used the expertise and knowledge of doctors at private hospitals with whom they made contractual agreements. In some cases military bases were used to hide these covert activities.
On December 17, 1999 I turned 52 years old. On that day I received three CD ROMs from the CIA in response to my FOIA request. Forty-eight years after I was first experimented on, I found solid proof of my memories--proof that was in the government vaults of the nearly 18,000 pages of declassified documents from the Bluebird/Artichoke and MKULTRA programs. One of the documents specifically stated that experimental studies of the postulated abilities of a few specially gifted subjects would be conducted. The document states, "that in working with individual subjects, special attention will be given to dissociative states which tend to accompany spontaneous ESP experiences. Such states can be induced and controlled to some extent with hypnosis and drugs . . . The data used in the study will be obtained from special groups such as psychotics, children and mediums . . ."
The document continues, "Learning studies will be instituted in which the subject will be rewarded or punished for his overall performance and reinforced in various ways--by being told whether he was right, by being told what the target was, with electric shock etc." The proposal then goes on to say, "In other cases drugs and psychological tricks will be used to modify his attitudes. The experimenters will be particularly interested in dissociative states, from the abaissement de niveau mental, to multiple personality in so-called mediums; and an attempt will be made to induce a number of states of this kind, using hypnosis." The government had finally handed me the validation I had been searching for. To say my heart stopped that day is almost true.
My goal in writing this book is to expose the misuse of power that took place in this country during the Cold War. Thousands of innocent children who have now grown into adults are silently suffering from the effects of the experiments that were done to them by their own government. Many have been diagnosed incorrectly and institutionalized. Some died because they knew too much. Others, like myself, were able to obtain competent medical help, and are struggling to heal from the physical and mental ravages upon our beings.
In recounting some of the incidents that happened to me as part of these experiments, I ask that you remember that I have attempted to be as accurate as possible. Some of these events were remembered during flashbacks and abreactions. During an abreaction, a person feels just like they are reliving the event; accompanied by all the sensory stimulation and original emotional responses. Abreaction is common in soldiers who are having posttraumatic stress syndrome, where they actually feel they are back on the battlefield.
The brain is somewhat like a phonograph record, it records the original happening. With Dissociative Identity Disorder, amnesia is created for the traumatic incident to save the young child's sanity. When the amnesiac barriers are removed, it is like putting the needle back on the track of the record where the original memory is stored.
In my case, post-hypnotic suggestions were used after programming sessions, which also created an amnesiac barrier. When the wall to these memories was broken down and the events relived, I would document them in bits and pieces by journaling, drawing and painting. Some of the things I remembered seemed bizarre, and I oftentimes questioned my own sanity. Only after all the pieces of one memory would come together, would I finally get a true picture of exactly what had been done. This is also when I truly began to heal.
For skeptics, no proof will be enough. For others, like myself, unraveling the bizarre nature of my memories has allowed me to regain control of my life. My greatest gift of healing has been to no longer operate out of fear, but from a rational, logical based reality. Choices to live, love and create that were taken from me through the fragmentation of my mind can now be explored.
Some people have asked, "Why now do you choose to speak out?" I prefer to let an Auschwitz-Birkenau survivor of the Mengele Twins experiments speak for me. When asked how she felt while she was being used as a guinea pig she said,
"My answer is that emotional scars are so deep that only now, more than 40 years later, are we attempting to face our past and come to terms with it."
I ask those same people. How can we envision the future without visiting the past? Will we let this story lay in the shadows forever, or do we have the courage to address these wrongs and give survivors back their voices? You be the judge.